Hello Ivan!

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I’m a Mum now guys! Ivan James Walters was born on the 12/2/13, weighing 7 pound 15 oz (around 3.6 kilos) & measuring 53 cms long, at 38 weeks on the nose. We didn’t end up with any photos from the delivery, partly because everything happened so quickly that we forgot the cameras, and partly because it was quite a traumatic experience for all of us. Unbeknownst to all of us Ivan’s head was sitting tilted in my pelvis, so I ended up having a very prolonged second stage (or “pushing” stage) of labour. I reached the point of exhaustion – I was falling asleep in-between my contractions – and in the end little Ivan was delivered using forceps, after a failed vacuum assist & I needed an episiotomy. I’m still working on writing Ivan’s full birth story, but it might take me a while.

As much as I wanted to be on top of things, and have one of those magnificent labour experiences that other women describe, my experience with labour was terrifying. One of the reasons that I so badly want to write about it is that every time I think of my labour I can feel a ball of terror knotting up in my chest, and I’m about half-way to a panic attack. I’ve also been having quite graphic, intense labour flashbacks that make me feel like I’m reliving my labour all over again. Shannon & I would dearly like to have more children someday, so I want to try and make my memories less horrible, and writing about these things usually works for me.

In the meantime, here are some snaps from our much-briefer-than-expected trip to Mackay:

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