2012 was year of big changes for me. After we moved to Clermont I struggled with a patch of homesickness, loneliness & depression. It took a lot of time to adjust to living in a small town after being a city girl my whole life. I threw myself into exploring the local area, working on photography & getting to know myself. I started wearing lots of colour, reading lots of books & working on DIY projects that I’d put off for a long time. Early in the year Shannon & I moved back into our own place, and started making it into a home. Then, just when things were falling into place we found out very unexpectedly that I was expecting. A pregnancy just wasn’t something that was on the cards for us, and it really threw us for a loop. I spent most of 2012 feeling nauseous, sore, exhausted & overwhelmed.
I started 2013 with eight weeks to go until my due date, and with a feverish sense of excitment about meeting our son. Usually I’m a big fan of making huge plans to turn my life around in January – plans that have usually been neglected or abandoned completely by February. But this year I only have a few things in mind, and they are hopefully a little more manageable.
- Be the best damn Mum I can be. I know that things are going to be different, and harder with a baby in my life. But I am determined to take the best possible care of this little dude, and give him the best chance to have a good life. I want him to know that he is loved every second of the day, and the night too.
- Be nice to myself. In 2013 I want to put more good food into my body, let myself rest when I feel run down, be kind about all the changes my body is going through, and ease myself back into my usual exercise routine once my son is here. I’m going to attempt one of 2012 goals that was going really well in 2013 – I want to run in the Bridge to Brisbane 10k this year.
- Take more photographs. I’m becoming more & more serious about my photography, and the best way to keep getting better is to keep taking photos. I want to do the Fat Mum Slim Photo A Day challenge on my Instagram account, and I have some exciting photography projects in mind for the year ahead. Mainly, I just want to keep developing my passion.
- Just be. I want to spend more time doing & less time planning, more time reading books & less time on the Internet, having more experiences & buying less things, being more joyful & less stressed, spending more time loving people & less time being angry with them, listening to more music & watching less crap television, pouring more of my energy into things that matter & less time worrying about the things that don’t. I want to back off a little, and just let life happens – because it does, whether I like it or not.
Here’s to an amazing 2013 for all of us – whether it goes quite the way we expect it to, or not.